If I could express one joy well, I would do my best to let it be my love for you. I’d do my best to share of when you came for me in the middle of an after party, at a club in the middle of downtown. When my clothes were falling off with the slip of another drink paralyzing morality or pain, or maybe a mixture of both. Where the Pharisees don’t believe you exist, but my testimony couldn’t scream any louder that you are there. You are there and you desperately hovered in love over me. I’d do my best to remember the time my step-dad had us moved because he beat her beautiful blues so black and blue. When your angel came around her swollen neck and kept us all alive. Brought us to you. While she grew into a woman she became a woman of God and gave us all she could find in You. I’d do my best to tell of those times you orchestrated every part of my life leading up to that night my whole world turned twisted without my consent. That because of free will and the choice people would make to cause such damaging pain, you orchestrated good while he continued in evil. I’d lift up my hands and shout your name with praise in my heart for that weekend you set my heart free from generational prisons and lifted their burdens off my shoulders. Because you first loved me… because you first loved me, and showed me a love unattainable by this world, a love so intense, so fiercely strong and gently warm, I’d do my best to express this joy I have in loving you. And even in its impossible nature, if not one other good thing came my way I couldn’t stop to think any other way.

 Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted o, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death?… And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate up from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow- not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below- indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. {Romans 8.35, 38-39}